Just discouraged. I feel like all the hard work that I am doing at the gym and eating healthy is not doing me any good. I cannot lose the weight!! I actually am gaining it back. I have heard that it is muscle weight or water weight or that time of the month.... but I am just over it really. I understand why people give up.
I started a food journal last week. I did it for two days then the weekend arrived and haven't been back since. The two days that I did the journal were really good. I was able to keep the calories under the recommended range and I was eating a lot of good food. Trying like hell to keep my metabolism up. This weekend I worked out a lot including a bike ride on Sunday. But the weight didn't go down, it went up. Which made me angry and I didn't go back to the food journal.
That is when it started to bring me down. I work out at least 5-6 days a week. I rotate between cardio, core and strength, but mostly cardio. I average about 40 minutes a day at the gym. If I don't get to the gym I work out at least 30 minutes at home. Maybe I am not doing enough? Maybe I still need to work on my food intake? Maybe I just need to only drink water and eat saltine crackers?! It really is bothering me. I feel lazy when I sit down on the couch at night especially when I have a weight gain for the week. My brain is telling me to get my fat butt up and doing something. But my body is tired. I know that I cannot work out all the time but maybe it would help. :(
I try to keep this journal upbeat and positive but today is just a not a good day. I have been coached and given so many great ideas as to what I should be doing but I just don't think that it is enough. Tomorrow is a new day, maybe it will be better.